“In today’s rush, we all think too much… seek too much… want too much… and forget about the joy of just being.”
~Eckhart Tolle *
I don’t know about y’all, but I’m feeling the rush and pull of a return to normalcy which I’ll admit, I am not quite yet in favor of.
“Normality is a paved road: It’s comfortable to walk, but no flowers grow.
~Vincent van Gogh *
For those of you who follow my online doings, the noise of the world has gotten to be a bit much for me personally and I have opted off the social media channels until further notice. While we cannot and mustn’t turn our backs on a troubled world just now – the news of things as they are happening in real time – we CAN turn down the noise of it all online in order to dig deeper into what is really happening out there, what can actually be done, and how we feel about it all. Sure one might get a chuckle now and then over on the socials, but true reality is a bit more difficult to find. And so I seek it in deeper wells.
I’ll be honest, I needed a break – have done for a good long while now.
And so I am taking one. Officially. I am hopeful it might be longer than the usual month off which happens now and then in normal times.
I celebrated this returning to myself, this coming home really, by building a fire last night. Humidity is creeping back up as of today, but in recent days past, the magic of a cool summer night’s mystery has been in rare form.
We are grateful.
We wear a crown of midsummer and watch the garden flourish.
“With life as short as a half taken breath, don’t plant anything but love.”
While not everything planted will be in top form this season, the garden’s beginnings give me hope for better days.
I suppose if necessary, we could live off of pumpkin and swiss chard alone, if we had to eventually. Perhaps not all is lost.
Life carries on.
A great June greening gathers further in.
“We must not allow the clock and the calendar to blind us to the fact that each moment of life is a miracle and mystery.”
~ H G Wells
The daily post continues to be a source of great day to day joy. Today we received the long anticipated “Views from Quarantine” zine project from Ireland-based artist and child-art psychotherapist Simone Westerkamp (also long time friend and musical pal). This zine is filled with offerings Simone gathered from artful friends and family scattered around the globe. We, Tony and I, are thrilled to have been a small part of it. In this era of grief, sadness and strife – in epic proportions, to be sure – beautiful small things are a keen reminder of the scale and importance of our own humanity.
“Never regret anything you have done with sincere affection; nothing is lost that is born of the heart.”
~Basil Rathbone *
The summer’s slowing, with my yearly work offerings no longer viable, affords a delicate space for quiet wonderment. There are Rainier cherries now at the market once more, which I love. When I can settle my brain and nerves down enough, I am drawing more in this in between time and space. I am grateful for these crumbs of validity in such tumultuous times.
I’ll admit I am not ready to re-enter the rat-race. I did not belong to it in the first place. This I must remember as the traffic time into my part-time work begins to once more give me pause.
We have our sights set to venture home to Maine later in July. (God willin’ and the creek don’t rise, as they say) Once there we will keep ourselves to ourselves, which we normally do anyway, and I promise we will do this all safely. I look very much forward to cuddle piles of hugs with my god-child and her sister, and our dear friends, their parents. Even as introverts, we are missing the humanity of a normal social existence. I am counting the days.
This is a strange new world we live in. Some people seem to be carrying on like nothing has changed, like it is an insult to their American-borne freedom to be asked to wear a mask in interest of the safety of others. Most near and dear to me of course, continue to be diligent and do what is necessary to keep things safe for everyone. We live life in the day to day just now. Plans are difficult to commit to with things changing so fast in real time.
In the end, time will tell.
As for us, we soldier on. Listening to books, reading books, doing puzzles, keeping to the work online as needed. Tonight we go to meet East-Coast cousins arriving new to town. Socially distant, of course.
Take care of each other, get hugs when you can.
****some of the quotes above (*) have been saved over time from a wonderful offering on the Book of Faces called Ravenous Butterflies. Go give em a follow if you are currently riding the waves of the socials. They are a bright light on a dark platform.