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Autumnal Equity

“It’s all about balance, do you see? Balance is the trick. Keep the balance and – ” she stopped. “You’ve ridden on a seesaw? One end goes up, one end goes down. But the bit in the middle, that stays where it is. Upness and downness go right through it. Don’t matter how high or low the ends go, it keeps the balance.” She sniffed. “Magic is mostly movin’ stuff around.”

~Terry Pratchett, Wintersmith

Skies are moody this morning.  Day-job work and exercise loom on the to-do list, yet pondering the still point of the season feels crucial.  My eclipse siblings of the soul were here last night, a gathering to mark the autumnal equinox.  There was talk of “shedding or casting off that which no longer serves us.” (Thank you for that M.) Which is wise talk indeed.  For me, that is this notion of “busy-ness”,  the internal ‘hurry, hurry!!’ feeling in the center of my chest, a trap of sorts to which society programs us for falling into.  To choose to sit and write or draw for a few moments each morning is a radical act of defiance some days.

The key to it all is balance.  To be the center of life’s seesaw when we can, as Esmerelda Weatherwax and Tiffany Aching do with such grace.  It is a strange thing to be a slow-cooker in a microwave, insta-pot kind of age.  And yet sinking into my own pace, my own slowness, affords me the deeper work I strive for.  In the long run, allowing my own pace magically gets more of my best work done, my best self in the world.  And so, on this Monday, the Autumn Equinox, I look for balance in a world gone mad.  And do my best to center in the midst of it all.

In The Garden… (home again and Thinning)

It’s finally August.  The garden is teeming (and I mean TEEMING!) with goodies to harvest…..

Tomatoes to nibble and process….

Piles and piles of basil that have now been frozen into pistou for the winter….

Peppers, cabbage, beans, a few teeny carrots (these make great dog treats, actually)… and the list goes on!!

It’s been really fun and I am learning loads and loads about how these plants can feed us if we know some simple rules.

Take the notion of thinning, for example.  When you plant certain seeds, they are so tiny, that just to get them into the ground, you have to plant way more than you might really need.   When the little plants start to take root and grow, the gardener has to make room for that growth by thinning them down.  This means actually pulling out perfectly good plants.  This idea used to horrify me.  I would either avoid doing it (and get weak plants) or I would obsessively move the new seedlings to a different place (creating way more work for myself and losing most of the little transplants in the process).  But I’ve learned that a little thinning is necessary.  And I have been thinking a lot about this idea as a life metaphor over the summer.

If you have followed my tweets or facebook posts this summer, you’ll know that I have been on the go more than ever.  It started with the Taos trip in June, followed by a couple of weeks of July devoted to a trip to Roswell, Georgia for a tour with the Frisch Marionettes.  The travels culminated with a fantastic journey back to our beloved soul-place in Maine for almost 2 weeks.  (Thankfully, that trip was for fun and family only!)  Although the work trips to Taos and Georgia were busy (and FUN!), being away from my normal duties at home allowed me quite a bit of time to think about the state of things in my life and work.  I was extremely homesick.  Especially in Georgia.  I am not cut out to live in a hermetically sealed hotel room, this much I know.  That said, I did get quite a bit of work done when not performing which I will share with you when it is ready…. but back to the garden metaphor….

If plants need thinning to grow, might we need the same?  I began to realize I had taken on a somewhat super-human list of Things I Am Working On in the past couple of years.  I have been lacking time and space to do deep work.  I have been runnin, runnin, runnin.  And it has been stressing me out.  So I’m making some changes.  Nothing huge really.  I have backed off on some teaching plans I had going, sticking with my work at the Art Academy (btw, my fall class on keeping a Sketch Journal is available for sign ups NOW!!)  I’ve decided to give up some of the volunteer work I do, in order to be fully present for the upcoming school year in which my oldest is a Senior in High School and will be navigating the college choice process.  With my kids getting their drivers licenses this fall and winter I will be able to work longer (but fewer) days at the concertina shop, allowing for fuller, juicier studio days here at home.  At least this is the plan.  More than anything, it’s a shift in perspective and paradigm.  It’s a moment’s thought before jumping into new projects.  It’s a commitment to some things that have long been on the back burner, awaiting their turn.

There needs to be more time to ponder the horizon…  More time to fabricate sails out of bedsheets.

And to watch the sun set over a body of water… whichever one might be currently available….

And to sleep out under the stars without setting an alarm clock….

I hope your summer has been productive and restful both, as mine has.  I will keep you posted as things progress here.  There are some exciting projects afoot that will see the light of day very soon.  In the meantime, stay in touch!  I’d love to hear about your gardens, be they vegetables or the gardens of your imagination.